For this alcoholic, making an AA meeting has become top priority in my recovery program. If you’ve been around the NA and AA programs I’m sure you’ve heard the slogans, metaphors, what to do and not to do and all of the other opinions that come with the territory. But one underlying theme holds true for this recovering alcoholic, I must make meetings as part of my recovery program.
Making a Meeting in Recovery: Why AA is Important to Me
When I first entered the rooms of AA and NA it was “suggested” to me that even though I had problems sitting still in my chair for more than five minutes that I just keep coming back. At the time I had no idea what that meant as hindsight was far from being 20/20. But, having hit what I perceived to be rock bottom in my life, I continued to make as many meetings as I could squeeze into a 24-hour period. Slowly but surely I began to see the importance of attending. While getting a sponsor, a support group and reading the literature where the farthest thing from my mind at the time, I had an inner feeling that by just coming back to the hour-long “sessions” I was hearing the same things that were going on inside my head, having a moment of peace from which I had longed for and actually just feeling a part of something that I hadn’t experienced in as long as I could remember.
It was only through time spent within the rooms that I began to feel a sense of comfort. It was my therapy from the outside world and for the thoughts swirling around inside of my head. Instead of closing off the world from within my apartment when I found myself with little much to do I attended a meeting. A time burner? Absolutely! But more importantly, subconsciously, these meetings taking place were the beginning of my healing process.
Through listening to a fellowship of recovering drug addicts and alcoholics I began to establish what would eventually become my home group. This eventually led to building enough courage to establish a relationship with a group of men and women within the walls of AA. My support group was then formed. Through the building of these relationships I began to let go of my inner feelings and emotions when I felt the need to. I found a place where I could let the weight off my shoulders. While I had friends and associates for years outside of the rooms that I could discuss sports, current events and general life ideas with these people really didn’t understand what was going on with me from within.
As I continue to build my time in sobriety, making a meeting is as important today as it was from day one in recovery. It’s an ever evolving process for this alcoholic, one which may hold the message or idea that I long for, sometimes without even expecting this to even take place. It’s my source of serenity for which another 24-hour period of sobriety rests on. Is it the entire solution to my everyday problems? I would like to think so but I am afraid not. However, it’s a tremendous part of my continuing journey on the road to a new way of life. And I continue to keep coming back.
Now just remember, this is just my take on what happened in my early experience from within the rooms of AA. This is not to tell anyone or set anything in stone that this is the way it will work for you. As we are all individuals we also perceive and act on life events differently. But through my experience, working an early program by involving myself deep into the rooms led to several reasons of thought for which I continue to hold dearly. When I feel I’m wading in a pile of crap I take it to the rooms of AA and NA, to my support group and to my sponsor. Holding in pain, negative experiences and day-to-day drama is not healthy for this alcoholic. And that is just one reason why I found a home. That home is within the rooms of Alcoholics and Narcotics anonymous. Here at First Step to Freedom, we can help you begin your recovery journey. Just give us a call today at (888) 415-8810 for information.